24 April, 2009

"lonely moon"

I'm sorry for the delay on this piece-- I had it written in my notebook yesterday, but I was too lazy to type it up. Today I did that, and also played around with the formatting. I'm very interested in using the structure of the poem to further the theme, and I wanted to play around with that idea. The main theme of this poem is the lonliness and emptiness, so I tried putting extra spaces between words to create that tense, stretched feeling, and to emphasize certain words. This is an experiment for me, so please tell me if you feel it worked or not. Enjoy!

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“lonely moon”

___the wolves perch along the ___bare
bark of the land, sheer
teeth that glint like forest fire
among ___the soldiers of pines flanking
the mountain.

___stand by me, and
our skin hardens into
peaks and valleys, our cells
all beating and panting, every
hair and crevice standing and
shouting for life.

___and the ___atmosphere ___is dust
and campfires, your tongue lights with
crackling embers of the naked
sun, the stark ___gulp of the night,
swallowing

sight. one last glimpse,
you— ___your hair limping around
___your eyes, chubby hands tucked
___in your pockets, the blossom of your small
___mouth stained with blackberry juices and
___whispers that fall heavy and ___stillborn
___into the dry, pine air.

the sky ___cries between
___trees— long and wan, echoing
___with the silent ___crackling aurora
___and dry moans of wolves, rimming
___the chalice of the blue and boiling
___valley ___with burning mountains, lit with
___molten dusk. ___campfires

sprout among the great roots
of the mountain, roaring
with songs and laughter, the curling,
sticky warmth of family, delicious
suffocation of flannel and flesh.

___but out here space is ___rent and
open, humming ___with depth and width.

___stars flood the inches ___between ___us,
universes twirl and ___fall and
sigh ___into burning dust, you sigh
into me, cold ___breath cascading like
an avalanche in the aching

___dark.
wolves yelp and shout
us,

the lonely ___moon.

23 April, 2009

"water waking, fire"

we could drown
so soothingly in the lazy waves
of sun; the heavy scent of lilac
that drugs, my senses subside so softly.
these stones that drag my eyelids
until i am dreaming
to silky, sordid music; the
beat, beat
of breath sounds that are
a gentle rap on my door.

wake up, lazy
bones.

but it’s warm under the covers—
the cover of branches interlacing over
the bowing boughs of our bodies.
i’ll draw you in, all your colors
like splintered stars, sweet babe.
the lace of our arched fingers bending
like grass, braiding the icy strings of sun
into a circlet of firefrost studded
with the pearly beads of our
sea-sweat, sweet.

22 April, 2009

Freakishly long poem

Perfect

You weren’t perfect
And I had another

But let me tell you
Let you listen

He wasn’t it.
He wasn’t there.
Sitting next to me,
His eyes elsewhere.

His dress was clean-cut
And his jaw powerful and strong
He looked like he belonged in a boy band
And indeed it was his dream.

While you with your stained teeth
And mismatched clothes…
You weren’t perfect
With your shining skin
And unruly hair

But…I couldn’t get you off my mind
The same way you couldn’t take yours
Off me.

You sat across from me
With your pleading eyes
Begging me to look at you
With silent prayers
And muted cries.

Little did you know
I never looked away from you
Watched you from the corner of my eye
And I only knew
You were watching me
When your favorite song came on
And you didn’t move
Didn’t budge
Didn’t tear your eyes from me.

Your hand reached across the table
Palm down
But stretched toward me
Quiet and pleading
But THERE.
While my “the one”
Looked off into the distance
Stared off towards the stage
Wanting to be there
Rather than with me.

So he goes.
So I let him.
“Go,” I say, gesturing to his mistress.
Go away
But I don’t say that out loud.
So he leaves
Gets up and goes
Strolls towards the stage
And grabs the microphone
With more want in his eyes
Than he ever had for me.

And the next moment
I am next to you
Hand outstretched
Staring into your stunned eyes
“Want to dance?” I say
Anxious to be with you
During your favorite song.

You sit, you stare
You don’t move
Too afraid maybe?
But I won’t have it
I pull you up
And drag you close to me.

As we dance back and forth
To your favorite song
And the next one
And the next
Neither wanting to let go.

By the time
My boy comes back
I’m sitting next to you instead
Laughing
Like I never did with him.

So I stand up
And he glances from me
To you
And back to me.

And with an embarrassed grin
But a firm look
He understands
The look in my eyes
The words on my lips
You have your love
And I have mine.
He’s not happy
But he knows I’m right.
So with a final nod
And a short goodbye
He turns back to the stage
Because even he knows
That we can never make each other happy
Like his stage can do for him
And like you can do for me.

So years later
As we lie in bed
Husband and wife
I look at my lover, my life.
And you look back at me
With your stained teeth
And mismatched pajamas
Your unruly hair
Falling into your shining eyes
And your skin
Glowing with pride

And the only thing
Running through my mind
Was how did I ever
Once believe
That you weren’t perfect
For me?